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MINDGAMES

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It’s time for another Sixer, courtesy of Denise at GirlieOnTheEdge.

“Melt away the fears and anxieties in your mind, feel them liquify and allow them to slowly trickle down your face and relax as tiny rivulets flow down your neck, shoulders, back, thighs, legs and finally your feet where they silently fall off the grid into the ‘Well of Anxiety and Panic’; keeping your eyes closed, cover the well, lock it in place trapping your anxieties inside, inhale, exhale, open your eyes and allow the calmness and peace to envelop you.”  

After six long months of listening to my therapist repeat the same litany in her soft, sing-song voice, one would think I was well on my way to living a life free of worry, what-if scenarios, anxiety, panic attacks and Xanax.

Oh, I have my times of quiet lucidity … weeks of stress-free bliss when I can enjoy a lovely dinner with my husband or a carefree shopping trip in Manhattan, nights when I fall asleep quickly and easily and wake up refreshed and at peace.  

Then just as I’m getting used to this ineffable comfort zone … WHAM BAM THANK YOU MA’AM!! … the panic machine is back with a vengeance, coming out of nowhere with all the subtlety of an 18 wheeler, taking over my life for hours upon days upon weeks only to suddenly, spontaneously run out of gas and coast away down the road leaving me in a safe haven until it reaches a rest stop where it can take a break and refill its gas tank for the next assault; it’s a cesspool of what-the-fuckedness, the grasping, squeezing dragging down quicksand of fuckedupedness! 

Some Einstein once said “The intuitive mind is a sacred gift; the rational mind is a faithful servant.” 

MIND – Noun: a beautiful servant; a dangerous master. 

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26 thoughts on “MINDGAMES”

  3. Gorgeous site! Love the elephant header! I like your therapist’s “mind trick” on trapping anxiety in the well and putting a lid on it. Good one! Found you through Six Sentence Stories 🙂

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  6. God’s original ‘you-think-you-can-fuck-with-Me? This’ll make the land of Nod feel like a Four-Star resort”

    Nice work with an identifiable tale of the true darkside

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  11. It is no secret I am all in when it comes to first person pov. And your Six is no exception, Nancy.
    All the mountain tops and valleys between what-the-fuckedness ( love this phrase) and fuckedupedness are inked with a proximity familiar to many of us.
    John adds what needs to be added during such a journey.
    A dance of darkness and light this is.🖤🤍

    (The problem with these peace-of-mind techniques exists at the phrase ” cover the well, lock it in place”… never works, not really; just a short term bandaid that wears off quicker than you can say Whan Bam Thank you Ma’am)

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