
Papers and leaves were snatched by the gusty autumn wind and scattered about the street like so many pieces of flotsam and jetsam.Β Β It was getting dark and Frederick knew he had to find his wife Helene before something bad happened, before she hurt herself β or worse. Helene had been terribly distraught this morning β more so than usual β and judging by the quantity of bourbon missing from the bottle, she was also probably quite drunk. Another horrible fight with his mother, Frederick assumed.Β
Shoving his hands into his coat pockets, Frederick hunched his shoulders against the cold harsh wind. As he searched the streets for Helene his mind began to wander back to a time years ago when things were better, back to when Helene was whole. How happy they had been, just the two of them so in love. They bought a cute brownstone soon after getting married, living there blissfully by themselves, making plans for the future.
When Helene learned she was pregnant they were ecstatic; she even began knitting a baby blanket. Then the miscarriage happened, followed by three more. Four babies lost and a multitude of dreams crumbled and forgotten. Helene had to have a hysterectomy and fell into a depression. No babies ever for the young couple β only the two of them alone in a sad empty house. Frederick urged Helene to consider adoption, but she refused and her depression deepened. How could one woman bear a sorrow so heavy?
A few months later Frederickβs father committed suicide, due in no small part to his motherβs constant badgering and belittling. Not wanting his mother to be alone and despite Heleneβs protests, Frederick moved his mother in with them. He thought Helene and his mother might provide some companionship for each other but the two women soon began arguing. Helene could do nothing right in Frederickβs motherβs eyes. She even went so far as to flaunt Heleneβs inability to have a baby, goading her on by calling her a dried up empty vessel, a disappointing failure.Β
As Frederick walked rapidly through the streets, he tried to figure out what had happened earlier. He had arrived home from work to find the door wide open and the house in disarray. Dishes were shattered on the kitchen floor. The phonograph had been knocked over, his motherβs favorite record in smithereens. Frederick had called out but no one answered. He’d frantically raced through the house, stopping at the entrance to his motherβs room; her door was slightly open and he could see she was asleep, curled up in her bed. Heleneβs coat and purse were hanging on a rack by the front door but she was nowhere in sight.Β
Suddenly Frederick snapped back to the present as he spied Helene at the train station; she was standing perilously close to the edge of the platform. Cautiously he walked toward her and whispered her name. Helene whirled around and Frederick was shocked to see the crazed look in her eyes and the cuts on her face. Helene tried to run but Frederick caught her. He cradled her in his arms as they walked home.Β
When they reached the house, Helene began giggling like a little girl and told Frederick she had a surprise for him. Bewildered, he followed her up the stairs to his motherβs room. Helene motioned for Frederick to be quiet as she tip-toed to the bed. She threw back the covers, revealing his motherβs bloody body, knitting needles deeply embedded in her neck. Frederick recoiled in horror. Helene grabbed her knitting needles and lunged at him, stabbing him repeatedly while screaming maniacally βThis is your fault! You brought her here!Β This is all your fault! ALL YOUR FAULT!!βΒ
Frederick collapsed to the floor in a bloody heap. The last thing he saw was Helene plunging out the bedroom window.
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